...says Tim Keller. And the creepy lady in Donny Darko.
So this is me clicking away from a slowly materializing research proposal, taking a minute to breathe, and realizing I am in need of grace to face tomorrow, day one of my new job. I will be working 1:1 with a 4 year-old student who has autism.
This will begin a new schedule of waking up at 7am... after months of sleeping in til noon. It'll be nice to experience morning again. But eek.
Also, I'll be re-connecting with the co-workers I spent last year with. They are lovely human beings. My extroversion muscles have atrophied, though, and I'm nervous about all the talking that's gonna go down.
Finally, I have no experience as a 1:1 teacher to a difficult little munchkin. What if I'm terrible. What if I'm always frustrated & can't make learning positive. What if my ignorance about autism bites me in the butt.
When I popped in to sign substitute teacher paperwork today, I had no clue I would be offered a part-time position. I feel like I should be more grateful, and less scared. So I'm opening myself up to the grace to proceed with strength, confidence, and optimism. The school's mantra is Be the BOAT, and I need to be the BOAT tomorrow: Brave, Observant, Active, Thoughtful. Sigh. I hope a miracle makes that possible!
From the drafts folder
6 years ago
Congratulations Tasha (Sorry I'm a week late!) You will be awesome and you will gain so much from this experience. Your experience reminds me of being pregnant with my first born and the emotional feelings of incompetence/competence that comes along with it. Good luck.
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