An Old (Refreshed) List: 'Things I've Lost Along the Way'

The Things I’ve Lost Along the Way

1. The key to the GW International Services Office bathroom
2. 13 roommates
3. A miniature glass bottle full of 14k gold dust on a chain
4. An iPod
5. My belief in God
6. My disbelief in God
7. The brown diary I wrote in when I was at the rock-bottomest year of my life (it stayed on an airplane when I did not)
8. My friend Autumn who was killed by her husband
9. Proximity to the beach
10. The ability to do a cartwheel or handstand
11. Papa Newell, the kindest and wisest man I know
12. The Dell laptop some kids stole from my apartment in South Sacramento
13. Three childhood homes on Coronado island
14. My pirouette
15. A tendency toward sadness and fear
16. My USB key with all my poetry & Fiona Apple on it
17. My aversion to unhealthy food
18. My vulnerability to manipulative people
19. Cell phone signal
20. My black leather Rainbows
21. All the diplomas I was ever awarded
22. My physical ability to drink coffee like water
23. Time spent at parties I didn’t want to attend, at redundant coffee dates, on unnecessary phone calls
24. My neck
25. $700 of dad’s money during a careless month on an AT&T Family Plan
26. My understanding of math
27. The fuses for this apartment’s fuse box
28. That rouge courderoy jacket I bought in Brea and loved so much
29. French literacy
30. 10 pounds since the days of college cafeteria grazing
31. My not-backed-up desktop diary called Life Goes On
32. My passport
33. Creative discipline
34. My precocious ability to memorize every phone number I needed
35. A tennis game or 300
36. A willingness to imagine my life without you